I did not know what came over me last night.
Will he ever get married? Will he graduated from school of art? Will he excel in life? Will he get a job?
AM I IN DENIAL, still? Should I be asking these questions if I accept him the way he is?
“Aiza… Can I ask you something? Do you accept him as he is? With ADHD? Accept him for who he really is?”
and my answer was…. “OF COURSE!!!” (after a long pause) and I cried. That was my answer.
Who can I talk to? or more of who can just sit with me for 1/2 hour in silence? No one, full stop. Not for now I think. Who can really understand and feel me? No one.. just no one. Am I struggling alone? Physically, no. Do I share my son’s KPI with my partner? I’m not sure. I can’t really tell.
It is sad looking at his low muscle tone. How he sometimes struggle with some sensory issues; either overload or under load. Picky eater he is. 😦 I assigned him for tennis class and it seems to go okay for a while. Let’s hope he can survive in the neurotypical kids surrounding.
Alhamdulillah, his speech embarks to a whole new level now. He is more expressive. We are now on Reconnect Kit protocol by Young Living . It works well with him.
Thank you Allah swt for sending us an online friend- Marissa Ali. She is an angel. Helps me a lot (she might not realise this but TQ so much Marissa Ali). Not only she helps me with my oiling part, but with knowledge sharing sessions. I can’t afford to repay her for all the oils and stuffs you gave my son; and the most important thing- the encouraging words you gave me.
O, heart! Please be strong and be kind.
Aiza Jasmi,An ADHD Mom