A teary Monday night

I did not know what came over me last night.

Will he ever get married? Will he graduated from school of art? Will he excel in life? Will he get a job?

AM I IN DENIAL, still?  Should I be asking these questions if I accept him the way he is?

“Aiza… Can I ask you something? Do you accept him as he is? With ADHD? Accept him for who he really is?”

and my answer was…. “OF COURSE!!!” (after a long pause) and I cried. That was my answer.

Who can I talk to? or more of who can just sit with me for 1/2 hour in silence? No one, full stop. Not for now I think.  Who can really understand and feel me? No one.. just no one.  Am I struggling alone? Physically, no.  Do I share my son’s KPI with my partner? I’m not sure. I can’t really tell.

It is sad looking at his low muscle tone. How he sometimes struggle with some sensory issues; either overload or under load.  Picky eater he is. 😦  I assigned him for tennis class and it seems to go okay for a while.  Let’s hope he can survive in the neurotypical kids surrounding.

Alhamdulillah, his speech embarks to a whole new level now.  He is more expressive. We are now on Reconnect Kit protocol by Young Living .  It works well with him.

Thank you Allah swt for sending us an online friend- Marissa Ali. She is an angel. Helps me a lot (she might not realise this but TQ so much Marissa Ali).  Not only she helps me with my oiling part, but with knowledge sharing sessions.  I can’t afford to repay her for all the oils and stuffs you gave my son; and the most important thing- the encouraging words you gave me.

O, heart! Please be strong and be kind.

Sincerely,

Aiza Jasmi,An ADHD Mom

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